queen for a day
i admire through eyes
who’s love had all but retired
and orange tentacles
of delight shoot
like mighty spires
upward
swirling
they paint the sky
winding their way
to castle of love
floating, peacefully above it all.
a black knight.
a unicorn.
a scene from a child’s dream.
haunted, as the bars that bind us.
lost instances
re-instate the taste of
true love’s kiss
a childlike innocence
who’s words are in excess.
only eyes are able to express
this
inner confidence and
her arms unfold
and open
beckoning me in.
i adapt like chameleon
retrieving soul fire from surroundings
winding cloak of captive creators
I mount the first step to her spire
and realize the flight
has been paved
instinctually
by the sages from
every age.
a quiet voice inside reminds,
“you’ve done this before”
but not quite the same this time,
tempted by the strength of internal
bliss button
i retreat
into the cave
and recall each suggestion
1. i sit and attempt to transmute
space to open arms of grace,
at which i fail
until…
internal eyes open upon my ability
to fully engage in heartfelt passion
2. meet with eyes of love
i’ve not seen since first love’s flavor,
floods reclaim the adolescent shame
and rain falls on minds window pain,
simple and profound previews of power
beg me to center
to re-enter and dress with spicy topping.
3. cataclysmic initiate reunites past and present
however medicine numbs, now calling
for reflection, return to basket,
and re-instate first simple suggestion
paraphrased “fully engage in heart felt passion”
and in the nearing of the re-entry of the perfect octave
past-
my heart rests
in revelation-
i re-instate the calling of heart
and await
patiently
who is this?
the receiver asks.
the schizophrenic voice insists
honestly!
I uncomfortably shift
This
childlike sage is a she-queen starfish.
who’s eyes
long to grant
just one wish.
love
the deepest kiss
always insists
on the strength of
the glowing helixes
that pour from her
soul orbs like a hail storm.
and rather than
run for cover
as i would have in the past
i stand
in mind bending silence
staring into the liquid
avalanches advance
and smile
teeth showing
deepest depths
of inner heart
knowing
“there is no way in hell
a writer could script this perfection”
-and all this
because of one
simple
suggestion.
take hold
of my ineffable reigns
as i streak by
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm
what ?
who said that?
banter
gibberish
i guffaw (which i never do)
and my etheric entrails
are spewed forth and laid
before me
on an astral operating table
>THIS one restructures reaction to egoic drives
>THIS allows integration of heart felt pleasure
given by godess guru in divine contract.
mmhhmm…
wait…
what are you telling me?
are you talking about destiny?
who is asking who.
i see
a parable to perplex
the suggesters
a living set of lines to
re-invent the hidden specters-
my loyalty remains with you-
black hooded she
and you-
white clad father
in your shapes i shall build my vessels
from your lips
my words spring upward.
and never again shall
i defile my own essence for
earthly pleasures
prison cell.
I stand in the line
of remembrance
holding my ticket.
to she who beckons me
Yawning from deep slumber
I awake
in utter pleasure
aware of her presence
heart beats loudly, pulse quickens in anticipation.
Eyes rise to
Greet her glowing tower
A vast infinitely expanding
helix who’s shimmering walls
sing the melodies that soothe all beings.
“come rest beneath my wings”
I crawl to the base of her mountain,
slowly,
transfixed,
by this
seemingly
immaculate re-conception of source essence.
careful not to look away
in fear of missing the sound of her voice,
knowing all senses are tuned to the blessings
of her laughters caressing.
how can one sing so beautifully?
the soothing quality is beyond me
body jolts with transcendent tantric quiver
eyes transfixed on her body that has now shifted
into shape of phoenix
rising
showering translucent feathers in billions of ever changing rainbow patters,
each becomes a pin-point that pierces my flesh
and expands within me
body disappears then reappears, so fast it slips between the dimensions,
eyes roll back into head as body is lifted
her multitudes of ever caressing arms
lifting
slowly
as light nodes
restructure and mend insides
re-creating I as I am known,
eyes stream
tears of renewal
body undulating
mouth opens
and tongues tastes
sweet nectar
a smile so deep
involuntarily greats my lips
sending silent deep rolling laughter
into all matter
I wind my way
up
to her
radiant face,
my eyes now open
as if for the first time,
yet the sweetness in her
eyes remind me
that I’ve never before
lived
because I’ve never died
“no trying”
she whispers,
again i shiver
pleasure like i’ve never known
the flip side of the pain I felt
at birth is revealed
and i taste the sweetness of her melody upon my lips
again her body shifts,
a face so flawless,
i see my reflection in her eyes
and my own tears
dance wildly from my face
each creating its own frequency
that sings and blends
in perfect harmony
with her growing voice
“where are you taking me?”
“no-where”
she says soothingly without using words,
“you are already here,
you are home.
and I am here with you,
I rest inside your cave,
beneath the floor boards of your mansion,
deep beneath the surface of
who you are
I pull you in
when you are worn
I bask you in the glory of my light,
I soak you for timeless days
in my pool of renewing nectar
we are inseparable.
and although you seem to forget,
it is with great pleasure
that I keep reminding you.”
tears of remembrance stream
from my cheeks,
“thank you”
“I will keep remembering, I will
drink your words with delicate
and awe filled lips, every time”
I will be in love with your voice
always.
Nagual Heart This Friday at the Temple
This will be an amazing experience, it should last approx 2 hours.
blessings
dragonboy
Star in John Staedler’s music video!
Come star in the first ever John Staedler Music Video!
You (and anyone you know) are cordially invited to
star in the shooting of the music video for “Live Life
Today”
Sunday October 8th, 11am sharp! @ Community Park, in
Chico, CA
Located on 1900 Whitman Avenue (just north of 20th by
hwy 99)
Two requirements:
1. Wear nice dress work clothes, the kind you would
see at an office.
2. Be prepared to dance/go crazy!
Hear “Live Life Today” at:
http://www.purevolume.com/johnstaedler or
www.johnstaedler.com
Copy and paste the link below for directions:
http://www.mapquest.com/maps/map.adp?searchtype=address&country=US&addtohistory=&searchtab=home&formtype=address&popflag=0&latitude=&longitude=&name=&phone=&level=&cat=&address=1900+Whitman+Avenue&city=Chico&state=CA&zipcode=
Email me with questions
Hope to see you all there!
portland crux adventure images
as fair as a maiden can be
as fair as a maiden can be
she stands
tall as redwood tree.
her smile pierces through veils
of entangled hearts
enchanted chords
weaving webs
of remembrance
among the ever ascending
agents of change
she speaks in silent whispers
“re-invest child—in this”
and i am engulfed,
in the grace of her loving kiss,
the tingeling tantric sensation leaves heart full
and mind blank
a canvas stretched tight
and ready
elementals dance
in circular column above crown
each poised
awaiting the power of my potential,
always revealing the structure
of mothers law
the perfect maze of cellular memory
and his story,
the filth
to create this modern incarcerating irony
pull me from his hatred
great mother
let me rest on your valley floor
unlock the chambers to your sacred space
revealer
whisper soul service to activate enchantress,
allow I to remeber.
blood red tears
stain
the narrow path to tower
i climb
body wracked with fatigue
give me strength fair maiden
and through your love
give me time out of time
allow your coursing molten veins
to fuse with my own
implant I with feather light perfection
of condor
up and out of cave mouth
we soar
wings steady pulse
wind carresses dew filled lashes
tears dance with rain drops
sun shower laughter
echoes
through ever expanding halls of remebrance
creating chords of thundering storm clouds
a reverent furry
take our bodies great mother
make us the fuel for your fire of
reclamation
place our precisley crafted vessels
into your sacred spiders web
chant through our vibrating throats
incantations that our hearts have always known
beam lighting bolts from our crowns
to fathers door
imprinting the tale of your union
on the seed of each
chrimson blossom,
let us reveal through
your truth
the secrets of childs heart.
give us this gift fair maiden
and we will be your gifts.
1078 prayerformance for “burlesque” event
I’ll transcribe the 15 foot poem at some point in the future
where’s this guy going? look at that load. Is he going to the dump?
check out this film!!
(even if you can’t make it to the showing here in Chico)
October 3
BASQUIAT (1996, U.S.A.)
106 min. DVD. Directed by Julian Schnabel. Hosted by Amy Bloch, Department of Art and Art History and Humanities Center Board. University Film Series 7:30pm, Little Theatre (Ayres 106)
$3 suggested donation
When brilliant American painter Jean-Michel Basquiat died of an overdose at the age of 27 in 1988, fellow artist Julian Schnabel marked the moment by scrawling, “JMB August 12th” on a 16-foot tarpaulin. Nearly ten years in the making, Schnabel’s Basquiat is a film of exhilarating verve, which casts an eclectic group of celebrity names into the New York arts firmament in a portrayal of Basquiat’s brief life. Cast: Jeffrey Wright, Christopher Walken, Dennis Hopper, David Bowie, Gary Oldman, Courtney Love, Tatum O’Neal, Willem Dafoe, Claire Forlani
schedule
my friend zach has been helping me out with music theory THANK GOD!! he’s a really great teacher and person, this stuff is SO hard – especially when you miss the second week- this was the first burningman that i attempted to do homework. it worked out pretty well – although i’m still fairly lost in class. ah well. it’s fun to learn music.
here are a few burning man pics
oh and my gaurdian owl altar at the temple
many blessings
the dragon
the raddest dust storm i’ve ever been in (ask me about it)
view from inside the trilobyte
a big ass cube i got to paint on-mine is all the way on the left
owl gaurdian
Cool Film on campus
University Film Series
Tuesdays, 7:30pm
Little Theatre (Ayres 106)
$3 donation suggested
898-4642
www.csuchico.edu/hfa/hc/filmseries.html
September 5
Caravaggio (1986, U.K.)
93 min. 16mm. Directed by Derek Jarman. Hosted by Amy Bloch, Department of Art and Art History.
As this film reveals the 17th-century painter’s complex life—his brilliant, nearly blasphemous paintings and flirtations with the underworld—it is also a complex and lucid treatment of Jarman’s major concerns: violence, history, homosexuality, and the relationship between film and painting. “Brooding, sensual…a bold, quirky Caravaggio in pagan and poetic glory.”—Newsweek